neurosis,

...I have some, but talking to certain someones allows me to realize that I can't rely on habits and anxieties. Instead, I must rely on productivity--even on a minor scale, I have to keep busy.

So, as a result: I will be industriously reading, sewing, drawing, cooking, and watching good film.

(lately: read Candide, watched Synecdoche, New York, baked thumbprint jam cookies)